i'll be here when you've figured it out. if you figure it out. until then, i'm not sure where we stand.
[ until then, she isn't latching onto hope. aiming too high only makes the fall that much harder to bear — a fact emphasized by the clutching hand over her heart, squeezing it in its vice grip until it's pulp. ]
maybe if you had realized that before, we wouldn't be in this mess. or maybe we still would be. maybe you still wouldn't have chosen me. if you can't say you would have, then i'm not so sure i'm your entire world, nikolai.
i still love you. you don't deserve to hear it, but i do. but i think i've always known that the way i love you is more. just more. more than you love me. so don't tell me it's the same as aleksander and i. if he had made the same offer to me, i would have walked away. i would have kept trying to find another way. and that's the difference between us.
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if you figure it out. until then, i'm not sure where we stand.
[ until then, she isn't latching onto hope. aiming too high only makes the fall that much harder to bear — a fact emphasized by the clutching hand over her heart, squeezing it in its vice grip until it's pulp. ]
maybe if you had realized that before, we wouldn't be in this mess.
or maybe we still would be. maybe you still wouldn't have chosen me.
if you can't say you would have, then i'm not so sure i'm your entire world, nikolai.
i still love you. you don't deserve to hear it, but i do.
but i think i've always known that the way i love you is
more. just more. more than you love me.
so don't tell me it's the same as aleksander and i.
if he had made the same offer to me, i would have walked away. i would have kept trying to find another way.
and that's the difference between us.