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6'2", mid-twenties, strong, fit build. blond hair, bright hazel eyes. very much a ridiculously "picture perfect" good-looking man and will not let anyone forget it. slightly crooked nose. loves the sun and the sea and has a nice tan to prove it. favors military dress and polished boots, but can be seen in royal regalia when the occasion calls for it. (as sturmhond — reddish hair, much more crooked nose, muddy green eyes. rarely seen without his teal frock coat with gaudy gold buttons and enormous frilly sleeves. #fashion) has veiny black scars that begin at his wrists and go down his hands, darkest at his fingertips (nearly solid black). he wears gloves 100% of the time to cover them. he has many other (more normal-looking) scars. the other strange one is a small star right over his heart where he stabbed himself once with a spike from a thorn wood tree in an attempt to cleanse himself of the demon that inhabits his body (not successful, but also not fatal, #yolo).
when he turns into the demon, his fingers become tipped in long, black claws, his teeth grow into sharp fangs, his eyes turn black, and dark veining appears across his skin. he sprouts wings that seem to be made of shadows and can fly long distances. he gains enormous strength and is able to tear easily through flesh and bone, break through glass, and rend metal. he loses the ability to speak and read, but retains a hazy sort of consciousness and is able to eventually recall his time as the demon (and all the bloodshed committed during it) once he returns to his human form. don't @ him, he will insist he doesn't remember shit.
CANON POINT — i default nikolai to his flop era king of scars era, but am definitely up for shadow and bone trilogy, rule of wolves, or canon divergent things. if you want to play from netflix canon, just let me know! his story is very different there, so just know i default to book canon unless we specify otherwise.
PHYSICAL CONTACT — yes, but due to his affliction, he is not likely to take casual lovers to bed. he literally sleeps in iron chains. however, this will not stop him from flirting like a fool.
MINDREADING/MAGIC — yes, go for it. his mind is literally on fire at all times. he is also a huge liar.
VIOLENCE — yes, fuck him up. he is hardy and there are healers around. nikolai is host to a demon that he has limited control over, so it is extremely likely that he will accidentally attack you and feel very bad about it in the morning. pls pm me for any particularities irt injuries, otherwise he might scratch your baby up a little. no to killing.
WARNINGS/TRIGGERS — nikolai can be extremely glib about thoughts of his own death and is 100% ready to die at all times. this is a combination of heroism and tragedy. he is a sunshine boy who has been cursed with literal darkness, and he will go to great lengths to hide how brutal it's been to cope with. other triggers are that nikolai's demon is one huge non-consensual warning, as it causes him to commit acts he has little to no control over. i will not hit you with any kind of sexual non-con without prior ooc discussion. however, i am going to assume that if you tag nikky, you're okay with some violence, as this is part of the nature and struggle of his character. as far as ooc triggers, i am a garbage can and am down for p much every terrible idea you might have.
BACKTAGGING — yes, and 100% of my rp is done this way! i tend to like meaty story/character-driven tags, and i am a Slow Writer, but i live for slow burn psls and will literally backtag into eternity.
FAVORITES — MAL, i will literally do anything for a malkolai psl. alina and kaz are my other god-tier favorites.
ALSO YES — the darkling to explore some terribad dynamics. does anyone play tolya because i am here for it. i love genya and will absolutely write some genyalai. tbh i am shipping trash and can probably be coerced into shipping anything. inej and sturmhond being pirate besties is a dream of mine, and nikolai and nina hilarity dynamics are simply chefs kiss in my head. we were literally robbed of the nikolai and nina interaction in the duology ok.
NO — ??? matthias probably
CROSSCANON/OCS — yes, if the vibes are there i will not stop the ways of the universe. i am very much a slow burn build up bitch, and i'm not the biggest fan of assumed cr because then we're skipping the best parts.
AU/CANON DIVERGENT SCENARIOS — yes, i'm here for it. i'm open to psls and am very much a fan of awful things and angst. i'm a huge fan of nikolai's demon and would love to explore a loss of control or madness.
SMUT — i'm fine with writing it! i prefer it to be as part of a bigger story rather than smut just for the sake of smut. give me all the pining and denial. i enjoy m/f and m/m equally, and nikolai will insist that he is a take charge bitch (and he is), but he is also a step on me bitch that struggles with giving up control and really needs to be lovingly slapped in the face every once in a while.