i'm not giving up. not until i've tried everything.
[ but he still feels like his options are narrowing each day, that the beast sinks its claws in deeper and deeper each time he wakes. he's never felt this sort of hopelessness before, not once, not until now. it's a breaking dam he's trying to hold shut with little success. it's poison, this heavy feeling that all his efforts are for naught, and while he normally finds that particular darkness easy to resist, he knows by alina's defeated tone that he's already let it infect him. ]
do you believe that i love you? that it's because i love you that it's hard for me not to feel like i've dragged you into something i'm not sure i can pull us out of? even if you hadn't bound the monster to you, it would still be inside of me. i don't want you to think this is your fault. i miss you dearly. lie to me and tell me that love is enough to get us through this.
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not until i've tried everything.
[ but he still feels like his options are narrowing each day, that the beast sinks its claws in deeper and deeper each time he wakes. he's never felt this sort of hopelessness before, not once, not until now. it's a breaking dam he's trying to hold shut with little success. it's poison, this heavy feeling that all his efforts are for naught, and while he normally finds that particular darkness easy to resist, he knows by alina's defeated tone that he's already let it infect him. ]
do you believe that i love you?
that it's because i love you that it's hard for me not to feel like i've dragged you into something i'm not sure i can pull us out of?
even if you hadn't bound the monster to you, it would still be inside of me. i don't want you to think this is your fault.
i miss you dearly.
lie to me and tell me that love is enough to get us through this.