[ he’s long since abandoned his prior reading, now stretched out on the couch in his study, his phone resting on his chest and one arm slung over his eyes while he waits for her to finish reading. maybe he shouldn’t have sent it. maybe it’s too much. maybe he should have waited until she wanted to see him in person. a flurry of thoughts bounce around in his skull until he finally feels a vibration just above his heart.
just those few words send a small trickle of relief through him. he wasn’t sure what he was expecting, considering how rightfully angry alina is with him, but he finds he desperately needs that kindness in this moment. ]
thank you. truly.
[ after a beat — ]
to be honest, i only really noticed your similarities once you became furious with me. so no, i’m not interested in you only because you remind me of him. but i’d be lying if i didn’t admit that some of the feelings are the same. the way it feels when i see you. the butterflies. when i kiss you i feel like i’m so close to touching happiness again. i’m not replacing him. i know he’s gone. i know you’re not him, nor would i ever ask you to be. but he’s the one that taught me what love felt like. and sometimes when i look at you i feel that again. i’m falling for you, alina. hard. and i can’t make myself stop.
yes good
just those few words send a small trickle of relief through him. he wasn’t sure what he was expecting, considering how rightfully angry alina is with him, but he finds he desperately needs that kindness in this moment. ]
thank you.
truly.
[ after a beat — ]
to be honest, i only really noticed your similarities once you became furious with me.
so no, i’m not interested in you only because you remind me of him.
but i’d be lying if i didn’t admit that some of the feelings are the same. the way it feels when i see you. the butterflies. when i kiss you i feel like i’m so close to touching happiness again.
i’m not replacing him. i know he’s gone. i know you’re not him, nor would i ever ask you to be.
but he’s the one that taught me what love felt like. and sometimes when i look at you i feel that again.
i’m falling for you, alina. hard. and i can’t make myself stop.