she isn't doing anything to mal. mal is doing this to himself. how i feel about what you're doing isn't stopping you, either. the nobility of martyrdom is vastly overrated. what would you have me do, alina? stop? will you stop as well?
[ he almost says you sound just like dominik, but it feels too much like pressing thorns into his own side. too much like admitting the both of them are right. ]
even if i did, it doesn't change the fact that i want to be there for you. i want to be there for the things that are hard and for the things that are easy. i want to stand by you for all of it. and yes, i do have other motives for going. i won't do you the disservice of a lie we both know isn't true.
facing things alone is looking a lot better than dealing with someone who wants to throw my pain in my face when it's convenient for them. i don't have to martyr myself by dealing with this, so i think i'll stay off the cross. have a nice night, nikolai.
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how i feel about what you're doing isn't stopping you, either. the nobility of martyrdom is vastly overrated.
what would you have me do, alina? stop? will you stop as well?
[ he almost says you sound just like dominik, but it feels too much like pressing thorns into his own side. too much like admitting the both of them are right. ]
even if i did, it doesn't change the fact that i want to be there for you. i want to be there for the things that are hard and for the things that are easy. i want to stand by you for all of it.
and yes, i do have other motives for going. i won't do you the disservice of a lie we both know isn't true.
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i don't have to martyr myself by dealing with this, so i think i'll stay off the cross. have a nice night, nikolai.