i wish it was worth more to me than it is. but i can't believe it. your words and your promises don't carry weight when they've all been empty.
[ it's kinder to leave it there, rather than tear every single shred of his apology to pieces — much as she doesn't feel particularly inclined toward kindness, in the moment. ]
it's not "couldn't". it's "wouldn't". but i'm giving you the chance to prove it, so i'd politely suggest not taking it for granted. i don't need pity or charity from you, nikolai. you've already told me you won't have time for me.
do you really feel as though this entire time i've never loved you? that the times i've said it i didn't mean it? that in everything i've done i've never shown it? have you not felt it at all from me?
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your words and your promises don't carry weight when they've all been empty.
[ it's kinder to leave it there, rather than tear every single shred of his apology to pieces — much as she doesn't feel particularly inclined toward kindness, in the moment. ]
it's not "couldn't". it's "wouldn't".
but i'm giving you the chance to prove it, so i'd politely suggest not taking it for granted.
i don't need pity or charity from you, nikolai. you've already told me you won't have time for me.
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have you not felt it at all from me?
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that's the worst part. that you could love me and still do this to me anyway.