"the most beautiful part is i wasn't even looking when i found you."
peasant | REALISTIC COLLEGE AU MEME | DEC 2020 he doesn't fault her for holding personal information close to her chest and firmly out of his reach. it's three in the morning, they're the only two at this laundromat, and they are technically strangers. it's not his finest moment walking in with someone else's lingerie, either.
peasant | INBOX | JAN 2021 in any case, he shows up promptly at the agreed upon time, and bearing gifts — a mason jar full of handpicked winter wildflowers dotted with white and yellow and blue, a gesture he hopes comes across as just right instead of too much.
peasant | TFLN/INBOX | JAN 2021 "i will admit at the time i was concerned when you didn't reply to my first ten messages. now that i'm painfully sober, i'm concerned as to why you didn't block me after the next hundred or so."
( mal & alina interlude a. ) peasant & sunsoldier | TFLN | FEB 2021 "i know it’s easier for you to blame this on nikolai but you should be blaming my life decisions instead."
( mal & alina interlude b. ) peasant & sunsoldier | INBOX | FEB 2021 "sometimes i can't help but feel like we're just in a game they're playing and they make up whatever rules they want as they go along."
peasant | INBOX | FEB 2021 "i like to think there's a difference between keeping you in the dark and sparing you from something that is likely to get ugly."
peasant | INBOX | FEB 2021 he knew this was a mistake from the moment alina arrived looking pretty as a picture in overalls that nearly gave his mother an aneurysm. he should've taken the yacht himself and invited zoya and mal to join them — that would have been a different sort of disaster, but a preferable one to this.
peasant | TFLN/INBOX | MAR 2021 "there’s a proper way to join someone’s family and that, my dear, is not it. i prefer you alive and unmurdered by a certain lantsov matriarch. speaking of dresses, what shall we wear to aleksander’s doomsday celebration? we must go shopping."
peasant | INBOX | MAR 2021 the top floors are silent, his light footfalls the only sound as he picks his way to aleksander's pristine office, slipping on a pair of gloves before he quickly picks the lock and lets himself inside.
peasant | INBOX | MAR 2021 his home feels empty without alina, all those little spaces he would find her tucked away in now abandoned and desolate, and when he can no longer take the sight of those hollow vacancies, he finds himself at dominik's grave in the middle of the night asking a headstone if he hates him, too.
peasant | TFLN/INBOX | MAR 2021 "well, you did tear a shelf off the wall. kind of like mal and the veranda and i know he doesn't like me very much. but you wouldn't be so wrong to."
peasant | SEXTING MEME | APR 2021 "in a remarkably uncharacteristic display of irresponsibility and poor planning, i failed to realize i have a 30 page paper due at 11:59 PM tonight. important question: do you think adderall will dissipate the effects of weed?"
peasant | TFLN | MAY 2021 "have i mentioned that i'm sorry? this may also be a good time to mention that i may be gone for more than just a few days. maybe a week. or weeks."
peasant | TFLN | MAY 2021 this is a bad idea. he knows this. and yet he balances the cake box carefully and fumbles for a moment to twist the knob with the heel of his wounded hand, finally successful at the third attempt. without invitation, he steps inside, his chest immediately tightening at the sight of alina as if it's been years since he's seen her instead of just a few weeks.
peasant | TFLN | JUN 2021 "i'm not picking a fight. i'm just appalled. i didn't return anything of yours you've given me, because i have manners. just because my life is in shambles does not mean i'm not capable of unwanted platitudes. what's criminal is the fact that you boxed all my gifts up and left them behind."
peasant | OPEN POST | JUL 2021 the place looks like as uninviting as when he'd left it, devoid of the life alina had breathed into its empty rooms and sprawling spaces. something in his gut had told him that maybe she'd moved back in like they'd agreed upon, as cantankerous as that decision had been. but his foolish hope has always been just that — foolish.
peasant | TFLN | SEP 2021 "how can i put you in a charitable mood? i need a favor that involves you being here. something you promised, if i may remind you, but have yet to follow through on. i happen to be a very forgiving person, however, so you're still on my list of people to call upon for unsavory favors despite your general unreliability and duplicity."
peasant | TFLN | NOV 2021 "feeling combative? you just called me unfunny AND nauseating. is it gold? how many karats? any precious stones? i'll find it for you. if i'd known you were not only coming by but also going to search the house i would've cleaned up a few things before i left."
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( psl — college au, nikolai/alina )